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i'm swimming in a mirror;

[ tighnari plans most things in his life vary carefully, and his heat is no exception.

past years he has dealt with it alone, but past years he has also lived quite far from civilization, so the all-consuming desire to seek out a mate was easily quelled by the fact that there was simply no one suitable within a reasonable distance. it was maddeningly frustrating, but it worked. since moving to the city, however.. things have been more difficult. the first two years he'd managed to control himself, but as he ages his heats grow in strength and intensity, and the year previous he'd very nearly done something he knows he would have regretted - it started via a text, progressed to phone sex, and ended with tighnari at the foot of a stranger's door, so eager and hungry that he'd been prepared to throw himself at some nameless, faceless body he'd found on the internet in order to slake his impossible thirst. thankfully, once they'd answered the door, he'd gotten ahold of himself and declined, but it was a very narrow thing. casual sex simply isn't something that tighnari does. not with strangers.

which is exactly why he has a different plan, this year. he'd considered taking a vacation to somewhere distant again, to tough it out alone, but unfortunately that's simply not financially feasible at this juncture, so he'd had to give up on that idea. the next best thing, he'd thought, would be to simply.. find someone he trusts enough to spend his heat with, someone he knows well enough to admit his needs to, but not so well that it'd potentially ruin a long-standing relationship. collei was out of the question, she's always felt more like a sister to him. he'd considered cyno for awhile, but they've been so close for so long that tighnari couldn't bring himself to risk their relationship for something so fleeting. everyone else that he knows is a colleague, and that's entirely out of the question, he'd never be able to show his face in the akademiya again.

but aki.. aki fit the bill perfectly. he's certainly good looking. they don't work together, they're not as intimately close as he is with cyno, but close enough that tighnari trusts him, that he thinks that aki won't find it particularly weird or off-putting. this is a biological imperative, after all, it's not something that tighnari can control. even still, he'd been incredibly nervous to extend the offer.. having prepared for the worst, but finding himself instead surprised by the acceptance.

after that, all that was left was to take paid leave from work, and preparation. he'd spent two days cleaning his apartment and tending to his plants, as well as stocking up on plenty of snacks and sports drinks, fruits and granola bars and things that are easy to grab, that also provide good energy. he's premade his meals for the week and stocked them in the freezer, finished all of his laundry, and rearranged the living space, pushing the furniture toward the walls to build a comfortable nest of cushions and blankets in the middle of the room. finally, the night before he'd taken a long, luxurious bath to calm his nerves, and gone to sleep.

when he wakes, it's late into the night, moonlight streaming through the gauzy curtains pulled before the common room windows, and across the glass doors. he's hot all over, deeply uncomfortable, and so slick between the thighs that he's dampened his boxer briefs and sleeping shorts both. tighnari groans, rubbing both hands over his face. it's too early. aki isn't here yet, he's probably still asleep, but tighnari's body is positively aching all over, deep frustration setting into his bones. his scent is thick and cloying, sweet like honey and crisp like morning dew, and it permeates the space, making him dizzy. he thrusts a hand down the front of his shorts, rubbing his clit and fucking himself hard on his fingers, but it isn't enough, gods, it isn't enough. two unfulfilling orgasms later he's rolling onto his side and grabbing for his phone, typing out a hasty text, deleting it, typing it again. ]

Are you awake? Started early. Please.

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[ The temptation to edge him is there, to draw this out and extend his pleasure, and Aki does consider it. Would it be too cruel, when Tighnari is asking him not to stop? Would it be too painful a tease? Aki can't help but enjoy it, watching someone as competent as Tighnari comes to pieces beneath his hands and mouth, but this time, perhaps, he will be merciful.

Because, yes, he can come again, soon enough. He's so lucky to not have a refractory period, and Aki will ache to fuck him once he's come the first time.

And he knows that Tighnari is close, from the bite of his claws and the roll of his hips, the way he fucks into his fingers and mouth. There's something so very satisfying about his mouth being fucked into, of feeling the urgency with which Tighnari needs him. Every inch of his body tells him. ]

Mm.

[ Comes his only sound of assent, his tongue delving between wet folds of skin once more, gliding up and down and up again, his paired fingers curling inside Tighnari and moving at a feverish pace. His assault is relents as he feasts, drawing Tighnari's orgasm close with no intention to stop until he comes. ]

[ aki is so good, too good, he reads tighnari's body like an open book, drawing him close to the edge so quickly it's like he's being dragged there against his will, but there can be no resisting him, not with the way aki's fingers and tongue work him over, skilled and attentive. ]

Aki, Aki, Aki..

[ tighnari breathes his name reverently, praising and begging hand in hand, his hips snapping upward in a staccato beat, fucking himself against aki's face and down onto his fingers relentlessly as the heat in his belly builds and builds, tightening like a molten coil ready to spring. whining, twisting, he climbs higher and higher, clawing and scraping, his breath catching, every harsh exhale a cry or moan or senseless word. soon enough tighnari is cresting, his vision becoming fuzzy around the edges before at last it whites out entirely, and he's left coasting on a wave of heat. ]

Oh.. fuck, fuck -

[ aki's fingers fuck him deep and hard and merciless, and it's almost painful, almost overwhelming, but in the best way tighnari has ever known. his cunt clasps tightly, squeezing like a fist around aki's fingers, and before he knows it tighnari is coming, gushing hot and wet around his lover's fingers in a burst of heat, flooding the blanket beneath him in hard spurts, his thighs slick with moisture. trembling, sighing, crying out sharply, tighnari arches into the pleasure, his tail bristling thickly, slapping against the covers, his chin tipped upward, aki's name harsh on his lips.

sweat slicked and flushed, tighnari collapses back, panting hard, his clawed toes digging into the ground, his fingers tugging ungently at aki's dark hair. ]

That's.. mm - that's never.. happened before..

[ his face flushes hot, and like as not this will be the first time that aki has seen tighnari look something like embarrassed. ]

[ Absorbed in the moment as he is, Aki doesn't piece together what's happening, until it is. The intensity of Tighnari's orgasm breaks around him with his voice and his body both, the scent of his slick, filthy cunt all around him already even before he comes, wet heat squirting around his fingers relentlessly.

Aki has never been with someone when this has happened, either, so it is a bit surprising, but once the initial shock wears off, it's incredibly sexy, Tighnari's essence rushing between his fingers and down not only Tighnari's thighs, but his own neck and chest, too, leaving a pool beneath Tighnari's hips, the blankets soaked and dripping. Heat twists like a knife in his gut, spurring him onward, and he doesn't ease up the touch of his fingers or his tongue until the torrent subsides, the walls of Tighnari's core easy back again.

It's only then that he at last slips his free hand down to his aching cock, neglected and lonely, but he is a patient man. It will be all the better for putting off his own satisfaction until Tighnari came on his tongue. ]

I liked it.

[ As if that wasn't obvious, from how flushed he is, how tightly he grips his cock and strokes himself. Withdrawing his fingers from Tighnari at last, he gathers up his moisture on his fingers and inserts them into his mouth, shuddering at the tangy taste left behind. He hums around his fingers, relishing the moment, before he is staggering forward, reaching for Tighnari's thighs to hold them apart once again. ]

Please - I need you.

[ Guiding his swollen cock against Tighnari's entrance, he drags his tip over his oversensitive clit, biting sharp against his lower lip. It takes all his willpower not to sink into him right away. ]

[ i liked it, aki says, and tighnari feels a little flood of relief. he doesn't embarrass easily, but this is.. certainly new territory, and he's absolutely made a mess - but it felt so good that he could hardly be too upset about it. even now he's still rolling in the aftershocks, pleasure thrumming to the tips of his fingers and toes, and when he feels the heat of aki's cock dragging along his slit, tighnari whines, his hips twisting, then arching upward. ]

Fuck me.

[ it's so sweet of aki to continue to ask permission even now, after everything they've been through, after everything they've done this week, but of course tighnari will tell him yes. tighnari will want him. biting hard at his lips, tighnari nods rapidly, his ears folding back. ]

Take me, take me.

[ satisfying though that orgasm might have been, and perfect as aki's mouth and lips and hands had felt, that doesn't mean that tighnari isn't still hungry and eager to be fucked. reaching forward, he drags his hands along his lover's abdomen, claws scratching against his skin, his tail beating against the blankets. ]

[ Yes, he continues to ask, and will continue to ask, because no matter how comfortable they have gotten with each other over the course of this week, its purpose hasn't left Aki's mind. This is to help Tighnari through his heat, and if fucking him now would prove detrimental to that goal in some way, then Aki has other means to get off, no matter how satisfying it might be to come within his lover's dripping, wet cunt after that orgasm.

Fortunately for them both, Tighnari wants him even now, and Aki could not hold out any longer, even if he wanted to. His hips are already stuttering against Tighnari's slit, that slick friction making him dizzy. The prick of Tighnari's nails into his skin only serve to spur him to find his entrance sooner, sliding into him with such intoxicating ease that he nears delirium.

All at once, the warmth of Tighnari's cunt pulls him in, slick and perfect around his swollen cock. In an instant, Aki is sheathed inside of him to the hilt, a deep, guttural groan issuing out of his lungs as he arches as deep into Tighnari as he's able. ]

Oh, fuck...

[ The pressure of his cock inside Tighnari's body forces their earlier come to drip down their thighs, and even more so once Aki begins to move again, rolling his hips into Tighnari's cunt, pumping in and out with a sinfully wet, squelching noise that makes him groan again. ]

[ there it is, that's what he wants, what they both want. ]

Aki..

[ tighnari arches, his thighs rubbing along aki's sides as he wraps both slim legs around him, hooking his ankles together against the small of his lover's back, heels digging hard against his spine, pushing down, urging him to go harder, faster, but aki hardly needs the encouragement. aki has been so patient, and now he's finally given the chance to unravel, to pump into tighnari's swollen cunt with wild abandon, filling him up so full that he can hardly stand it. heedless of what his neighbors might hear, tighnari moans, whines, tossing his head back, his eyes closed and his jaw slack, his long ears pinned back in submission. ]

You feel so good, oh, Gods.. fuck me, fuck me..

[ he's so wet, wet from his own explosive, debilitating orgasm, wet from aki's come still filling him up, still trickling down his thighs, wet from being fucked so well and thoroughly. he's still so sensitive, and it's quite easy for him to continue riding the high of his previous climax, rocking his hips upward into every one of aki's downward thrusts, receiving him openly, greedy and thirsting, his ears filled with the filthy sounds of their bodies, the wet slap of skin on skin as aki pounds into him mercilessly.

tighnari's hands scrabble at aki's bare chest, claws roving, dragging red welts, breaking skin. he's babbling, begging, unafraid to tell aki exactly what he wants and how he wants it. ]

Come for me, fill me up with it, mm, I want to feel you -

[ he wants to be pumped full, bred well, perfectly, filled up with kits. ]

[ Tighnari looks so beautiful like this. Fuck, he looks beautiful like this, completely undone beneath Aki's gaze, open and wanting and pulling him in with a gravitational force. He is so needy and debauched, that Aki gives in to the primal urge to fuck him senseless, until they both become entirely delirious. The way is so easy, and he has been so patient. No longer.

No longer. Now he pumps into Tighnari's cunt with abandon, his breath quick and sharp, groaning with each new dive. He could come now, easily, with how eager and wet and perfectly hot Tighnari is, but he wants to draw it out even longer, as long as he possibly can, to hear Tighnari beg for him even more, until there are tears in both of their eyes from the delay of pleasure.

Perhaps that is cruel, but he can be vicious when he wants to be.

Another wet slap as he slams his hips into Tighnari, sheathing himself fully, pressing further, deeper, into the straining walls of his pussy. Aki's fingernails dig in to Tighnari's hips, unrelenting as he holds him in place. ]

You want me to come? Then take it from me.

[ Milk his cock until there is nothing left for him to do but come. He wants to feel it, the pull of Tighnari's body around him, dragging his orgasm out of him until he spills free, the last thread of his self-control wrested away from him. He wills it to be taken, but Tighnari will have to fight for it. ]

[ aki holds him down with his powerful grip, so tightly that tighnari can't even rock his hips upward like he wants to, but he likes the feel of it, likes the way aki uses him, slamming into him mercilessly as if he were fucking into his own fist, deep and hard and ferocious. it's just what tighnari wants, just what he needs, to be fucked entirely mindless - his heat demands nothing less. he'll ache after this, he knows, he can already feel the sting, his cunt was sore even before aki took him again, but he doesn't care, he wants to be abused, to be a pretty little doll, a hole to be fucked, and nothing more.

gods, he would normally be so embarrassed to feel this way, maybe even disappointed in himself for giving into his animal instincts so thoroughly, but right now? right now, the fox within doesn't care about anything but its heat, and the satisfaction of being fully, thoroughly bred. ]

Aki -

[ he whines the name, desperate and almost petulant, fiercely impatient, but he obeys, bearing down, the slippery, abused walls of his cunt tightening, snapping hard all around aki's prick. his slick gushes, spilling around the intrusion, and tighnari's chin tips back, exposing his pale throat as he rides higher and higher, searching for that peak, scrambling toward it. he needs to please his mate, to give him everything he wants, show him what a good partner he is, obedient and dutiful, capable, strong.

tighnari comes with a wild cry, his claws sinking against aki's skin, pulling, tearing, his back lifting in a lovely arc, his tail slamming, beating against the blankets, his fangs flashing as he grimaces, hissing, twisting. it's intense, though after his last orgasm he has little left to give, his own spend spurting around aki's pounding cock, hot and slick though in lesser quantities than before. still, it feels just as good, the soaked blankets sticking to the small of his back, his pussy clamping brutally tight. ]

Please - [ he whines. ] Please, please - I need.. I need..

[ It's a thing of beauty, the way Tighnari comes undone, and Aki isn't quite beyond himself enough not to appreciate it, though it is hard, in the moment, to see anything, feel anything past the sweet pressure of Tighnari's cunt locking its hold around his cock, pulling, squeezing, aching, even as Aki pounds into him furiously. He has a great deal of self control, but he is not made of stone. Even he will crumble soon enough.

It's the way Tighnari pleads that pushes him over the edge, in the end. His thrusts grow more erratic, his mind heady and full of cotton, head tipped back, and it only takes one more pump for him to come, that feral need to fill Tighnari even further the last thing he clings to as he falls into pure-white bliss.

A cry is torn from his lungs as he spurts into Tighnari in hot, sticky threads, filling him up with his wet heat, and he is already so hot and wet - their mess drips down the front of his thighs, pooling at his knees, and the pressure must feel intense to Tighnari, but this is what he wanted. This is he asked for. To be fucked, and filled, to be bred, so Aki does not pull out as he pumps his partner full to the brim with his seed. For how long they were at it, his orgasm is intense, and it is several long, long moments before that sweet, perfect tension subsides.

With his fingernails still dug into Tighnari's hips, he hunches forward, shivering, groaning, gasping for breath. He's certain he's never come so hard in his life, and it is dizzying, even now, in the aftermath. ]

Nari...

[ gods, it feels so good - tighnari is quite sure that he's never felt so satisfied in his life.

he's had good sex before, of course. but never on his heat. never when his body demanded it of him with all the ferocity of natural instinct, never when he needed it most. and now, here's aki, happy to fulfill tighnari's every whim, to fuck him absolutely breathless and fill him up with his hot seed, to breed him good and full just how he wants it. just how he needs it.

aki spills into him, and tighnari writhes against the damp blankets, whining and begging, his entire body thrusting upward, hips arched to catch and keep every bit of aki's spend, but it's impossible, the pressure is far too much, and he can feel it trickling down the seam of his ass, and along the backs of his thighs. his cunt contracts rhythmically, eager to swallow up every drop. ]

Aki.. Aki..

[ he breathes, and when aki slumps forward, tighnari is quick to wrap around him, squeezing him with his thighs, both arms winding around aki's shoulders, holding near to him as their bodies continue to rock together, chasing every last lick of pleasure. turning his head, tighnari drags his mouth along aki's jaw, tasting sweat, seeking his mouth in a hungry, greedy kiss. ]

[ As the last of his spend drips out of him, Aki eases down around Tighnari, who curls around him like a vine, holding fast, his breath rushing against his damp, sticky skin. They are absolutely spent and filthy, the blankets beneath them soaked, but it feels good, it feels perfect. He could never move from this space again and be content, he's sure. ]

Nari...

[ He groans against Tighnari's seeking mouth, arms curling around his shoulders as his breath rushes against Tighnari's tongue. He kisses him drunkenly, hardly possessing the wherewithal to control where his lips and tongue connect.

He feels absolutely undone, every thread that held him together pulled perfectly apart and flayed. It's an utterly foreign feeling, to be so vulnerable, but he finds that he loves it, when it's with Tighnari. ]

...That was good.

[ He finally exhales, lips still loose against Tighnari's, nosing against the rise of his cheekbones as his eyes flutter shut. What an understatement. ]

[ they kiss, and kiss, and tighnari continues to whine and pant in broken little noises, and it isn't until aki is nuzzling his cheeks that tighnari realizes there are tears on them, his eyes stinging, the intensity of his orgasm enough to have quite literally brought him to tears. he can still feel it in his gut, the tight pressure, the rolling, pleasurable aftershocks that sink their sharp claws into the tender meat of his insides, squeezing.

it's almost too much.

but it isn't. it's overwhelming, but it's wonderful, it makes him feel more connected to aki than he's ever felt to anyone, which is a little frightening, but exciting, too. it pleases his instinctual desire to mate, which will be problematic later, but right now.. oh, it's absolutely exquisite.

tighnari sniffles, pulling in a sharp breath as he rubs his cheek against aki's like a cat, arching his entire body nearer, as if they aren't yet close enough. the nest surrounds them, cradling them, warm and soft, damp with sweat and spend, smelling of sex, and the fox in his blood is pleased, wants to rub his scent all over his lover, claim him. the glands at his shoulders throb, aching for the bite that would seal them together forever. ]

Mm.. mhmm..

[ is all he can manage, words are becoming more and more difficult as his heat reaches its peak. ]

[ A soft chuckle rolls low in Aki's throat as Tighnari mumbles in his arms, and he can figure that his lover is even further gone than he is. With the intensity of his heat at the point it's at now, that must have been...overwhelming. The tears are enough of a giveaway. He's definitely never brought someone to tears with sex before, and were conditions not what they were, he might worry that he had hurt Tighnari in his fervor.

He still is, a little, but he's grown familiar with the intensity at which Tighnari likes to be fucked. They both hunger for the exact ferocity they just shared, the welts and bruises on their skin only reminders of just how mind-blowingly good it was.

Tighnari wants to claim him, but he already has. In this moment, he is all that matters in the world to Aki.

He draws back, but only enough to touch his brow to Tighnari's, to glide the backs of his fingertips across his cheek. So gentle and tender, so far removed from the brutal intensity of this latest fuck. ]

Should we clean up? Or do you want to stay like this?

[ A shared bath would be nice, but he can't say he wants to leave their messy nest either. Soon, but not yet. ]

Mm.. just.. a minute..

[ tighnari hums, still catching his breath, still searching for words, and how to string them together. he's quite sure he's never felt so disoriented in his life. well.. not counting the, ahem, mushroom incidents.

aki's fingertips brush his face so gently, and tighnari breathes a shaky exhale, turning his face against them, brushing each fingertip with his lips. he's sticky with sweat and slick and aki's come, his dark hair clinging to his forehead and neck, his skin dewy, slippery - they could absolutely use a shower, but tighnari's not sure his legs would keep him upright right now, they feel like jelly, trembling and numb.

with his arms tight around aki's neck, tighnari nuzzles along his jaw, down his throat, laving at the spot on aki's shoulder where a scent gland would be, his teeth grazing gently. it's difficult, so difficult to resist the urge to bite down. this is far more dangerous than tighnari has expected it would be. ]

Mm.. okay. [ he murmurs, after a moment, still dragging his mouth against aki's shoulder. ] Let's go.

[ A shiver runs down Aki's spine when Tighnari catches the flesh of his neck in his teeth. He understands now, the instinct behind it, and he isn't sure how it should make him feel, but it feels...wonderful. That when he is at his most primal, Tighnari would choose him as a mate, even for what a risk it is.

But of course, he has no gland there to seal their bond, and he has resisted the urge to bite Tighnari's neck even where he knows it's safe, just in case. After a few moments longer to allow themselves both the chance to settle back into their own flesh and bone, Aki nods, adjusting himself so he can sling an arm beneath Tighnari's knees, the other around his shoulders. ]

Alright.

[ Hopefully Tighnari won't feel too incensed by a princess carry, because that's what's happening, as long as he doesn't fight it. It's the least Aki can do, after fucking him so relentlessly. He owes him some tender aftercare in a nice, warm bath.

As he rises on sore, weary legs, Aki presses a soft, almost reverent kiss to Tighnari's temple, inhaling the scent of his sweat and skin. ]

[ oh.. princess carry.

tighnari's first instinct is to balk and complain, but in the moment it actually feels.. quite nice, to be carried. to be taken care of. were he not in his heat, tighnari would likely put up more of a fight, but for now he only looks momentarily surprised, before he's looping his arms around aki's shoulders.

this way, at least, he's given full access to aki. tighnari leans his head in, purring low in his chest as he nuzzles his nose and mouth to aki's jaw, dragging kisses along its slope, and against the sensitive space just below his ear. breathing against it, tighnari's soon nibbling at its shell, purring right against his ear, rubbing his cheek hard against aki's jaw and cheek and ear, inhaling his scent. it's entirely unnecessary, but tighnari's finished holding himself back, he doesn't have it in him to keep his heart in check. this is a problem for future tighnari.

once they reach the bathroom and he's set down on his feet again, tighnari wobbles in place, reaching for the towel bar to balance himself, slick and come both streaking down his damp thighs. he's an absolute mess, and aki isn't much better. while the bath begins to fill, he cleans away the worst of it with a small towel, so they're not just soaking in their own filth soup. ]

[ God, his attentions are distracting, and more than once over the short trip to the bathroom, Aki is tempted to stop where he is and kiss Tighnari in return. But as it stands, he'll content himself with the feel of his mouth against his skin and the sound of his delicate purr. Scarcely a few days ago, he wouldn't have been able to imagine such affections from someone like Tighnari, but now, it feels as natural as breathing.

As the tub fills, Aki tugs another towel from the linen they've stockpiled, though they are...running lower than expected. They've, uh, needed to do quite a lot of clean-up. He makes a mental note to do a load of laundry for them later. The blankets in their nest will surely need a wash, too --

Somewhat cleaner, he tosses the towel into the hamper, before stepping up to Tighnari, sliding his arms around his waist and pressing fully to him, warm skin gliding against warm skin.

He doesn't say anything. Only meets his partner's gaze and exhales, slow and even. ]

[ they.. absolutely need to do laundry, yes, no question about it. tighnari hasn't dirtied too much clothing, considering he's removed it far more quickly than he could make a mess of it, most of these days, but they've gone through plenty of towels, sheets, and blankets. even more now that he's smack in the middle of his heat, needy nearly every hour or two, ready to go until bedtime, when they collapse from exhaustion, and raring again in the morning.

it's been so tiring. tiring, but.. so, so satisfying. still, tighnari is sure he's going to want to sleep for a full week after all of this.

aki steps closer, and tighnari leans into him immediately; they're drawn together like magnets, pressed close, and the nearness is gratifying. his arms coil around aki's broad shoulders, pulling him down so tighnari can kiss him properly, warm on the mouth, lips parting, one hand slipping up into aki's dark hair. he looks so good with it down, loose and wild around his handsome face, and tighnari loves the silky feel of it beneath his padded fingers and palm.

for all this week has brought them closer, they've still maintained something of a distance - even if that gap has been growing more and more narrow with every passing day. they've yet to bathe or shower together, unwilling to cross that line into new intimacy, but as tighnari steps back to set one foot into the warm water, he's pulling aki with him. ]

[ For all that gap has been narrowing, yes, Aki is still surprised when Tighnari steps back to lead him towards the bath, though that's also due to how distracted his by the feeling of Tighnari's fingers in his hair, and his skin against his own. Just being touched by him is fulfilling, distracting, and as soon as he's drawing away, he misses the warmth of his presence. Even if Tighnari hadn't pulled him along with him, making his wishes clear, Aki would've been hard-pressed not to follow him to the tub.

Wordlessly, he steps into the water with Tighnari, he gaze gentle and soft, far softer than it so often is, with his usual guarded nature. His hands still in the other's, he folds down into the tub, allowing his long legs to split around Tighnari's waste as he leans back into the heat.

A positively indecent sound slips out of him and he relaxes into the water, his eyes fluttering closed. ]

That's nice...

[ Nice, and cozy. The tub doesn't feel overly full, even with presence of both of them there. They fit perfectly together. ]

[ aki comes with him, stepping into the water as well, and tighnari is glad for it, a soft smile curving his mouth. he's going to have so much to think about, in the future. so much to consider, and unravel. but for now, all he wants is to keep close to aki, to be near him.

together they drop down into the water, folding up together, tighnari comfortably settled between aki's thighs, leaning back against his chest. immediately, tighnari goes boneless, sinking back into aki's arms with a soft sigh, his eyelids dropping low. the hot water feels wonderful against his aching muscles and bones, and tighnari begins to relax, having hardly realized how sore he was until he settled into this bath. ]

Mmhmm..

[ he hums, fitting his head comfortably back into the crook of aki's shoulder, nuzzling his jaw. the tub isn't enormous by any means, but it's just big enough to cradle them both comfortably. lifting one hand from the water, tighnari smooths his palm along aki's cheek and jaw, gently turning his head toward his own so he can press soft kisses to his mouth. tighnari's behavior gives away so much, but he can no longer bring himself to care. they'll work it out. they'll figure a way through this. but until this week is over, tighnari isn't letting go. ]

[ They've both reached that point, where their walls have come down fully, with no intention of being put back up until the week is over. Hell, even then, Aki will be hard-pressed to; once he has let someone into his highly-guarded heart, they are not so easily expelled. He is no fool, and realizes things will no doubt change when Tighnari's heat is over, but on his end, at least, the feelings are sure to persist.

And he'll deal with that when they come to it. For now, he basks in the sensation of Tighnari pressed fully to his front, winding his arms around his middle, tight and secure as they kiss, slow and sensual, Aki working open Tighnari's lips with his tongue and dipping into the flavor of his mouth.

This is nice. His life is full of so many terrible, harrowing things, that he must appreciate the sweet, quiet moments like these all the more for them.

He could get used to this, which is perhaps the most dangerous thought of all. ]

[ the kiss is deep, slow and sweet in a way that makes tighnari shiver, aki's tongue snaking against his own, earning a soft, plaintive noise. it would be easy to warm himself up again with this kiss, but right now, tighnari just wants to enjoy it for what it is, to enjoy kissing aki for the sake of kissing him.

so many thoughts and words are bubbling up in his chest. tighnari is pragmatic, realistic, he wants to talk this through like two adults, to set boundaries - but they've shattered their boundaries now, haven't they? they've broken right through them. turned them to dust. tighnari banishes them with his hand in aki's hair, with his mouth falling open to accept the touch of aki's tongue, with the sweet, soft sounds he makes against aki's lips. they break apart, but remain close, breathing one another's air, lips touching, soft and yielding. ]

Aki, you..

[ he murmurs, nudging his nose alongside aki's, his padded fingertips dragging down from his hair, against his ear, and his jaw. tighnari inhales, pressing back against him a little harder, his shoulderblades pushing into aki's chest. ]

I'm glad it was you. I'm glad you're here.

[ It's an excellent kiss, one that makes Aki's blood simmer with quiet heat, but demands nothing more, and after the intensity of their most recent union, it's exactly what he needs. These quiet, warm, sweet kisses, the pressure and taste of Tighnari's mouth and tongue that he's grown so dangerously fond of. He tastes good. He tastes familiar. Even should they never kiss again, Aki is certain he will never forget his flavor.

I'm glad it was you. I'm glad you're here.

Those words make the warmth bubbling in his chest swell to almost a dangerous point, emotion rising up into his throat, his grasp around Tighnari's waste tightening as he leans his head into his touch. To belong somewhere, to belong with a partner, with someone to care for and to care for him in return -

It's what he's always wanted. Of course it is. How could it be anything else? ]

Me, too. I'll stay as long as you need.

[ Tighnari is free to interpret that however he wishes. ]

[ tighnari himself.. he's always imagined that he would someday find a partner, a mate. that there'd be a union in his future, and perhaps children, seemed a foregone conclusion, but he's never been in any rush to find it, to make it happen and force it into being. better to wait for it to coalesce on its own.

and now, here's aki, aki's warm arms, his tender kiss, his gentle hands. he's been a strong, steadfast presence in tighnari's life since the day they met. he's kind, kinder than he rightly should be, given his past, given what he has gone through - he's sweet and strong, he's devoted.. and these past several days he's only proven that devotion, that strength, proven that he has everything it takes to be a worthy partner, a worthy friend, a worthy lover.

and yet. and yet. he's a devil hunter, and that makes all the difference.

the reality of it twists like a knife in his chest, and tighnari closes his eyes. ]

Will you?

[ he asks, in a voice gone soft, and quiet. his hands in aki's hair still, and his gaze lifts to aki's profile. ]

Don't.. make promises you can't keep.

[ Perhaps he had only meant in the sense of the week they'll be spending together...but Aki knows they are both playing at something far more serious here. That once this week is over, they will be able to so easily go back to being just friends. He wouldn't be satisfied being friends with benefits, either; he's never been good at avoiding attachment, and as good as the sex is, he knows his feelings will linger. That he wouldn't be able to turn them off if he tried.

So why try? Why try to resist the pull when they both know what they want?

Don't make promises you can't keep.

His gaze drops as he swallows, not quite able to meet Tighnari's discerning gaze, but not because he's ashamed to. There is simply...a lot on his mind, a lot of threads to work through. There is no simple answer to this, and he owes Tighnari his due consideration.

He...has never cared about someone like this before. He doesn't want to mess it up. ]

...I won't.

[ More than anything else, he does not want to hurt Tighnari. That has to inform every action he takes. But even if they remain friends, wouldn't it still hurt? If Aki were to die?

Is he just doomed to hurt the people he cares for the most? ]

i'm swimming in a mirror;

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