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ᴛɪɢʜɴᴀʀɪ ([personal profile] veardant) wrote2022-12-03 09:53 pm

i'm swimming in a mirror;



[ tighnari plans most things in his life vary carefully, and his heat is no exception.

past years he has dealt with it alone, but past years he has also lived quite far from civilization, so the all-consuming desire to seek out a mate was easily quelled by the fact that there was simply no one suitable within a reasonable distance. it was maddeningly frustrating, but it worked. since moving to the city, however.. things have been more difficult. the first two years he'd managed to control himself, but as he ages his heats grow in strength and intensity, and the year previous he'd very nearly done something he knows he would have regretted - it started via a text, progressed to phone sex, and ended with tighnari at the foot of a stranger's door, so eager and hungry that he'd been prepared to throw himself at some nameless, faceless body he'd found on the internet in order to slake his impossible thirst. thankfully, once they'd answered the door, he'd gotten ahold of himself and declined, but it was a very narrow thing. casual sex simply isn't something that tighnari does. not with strangers.

which is exactly why he has a different plan, this year. he'd considered taking a vacation to somewhere distant again, to tough it out alone, but unfortunately that's simply not financially feasible at this juncture, so he'd had to give up on that idea. the next best thing, he'd thought, would be to simply.. find someone he trusts enough to spend his heat with, someone he knows well enough to admit his needs to, but not so well that it'd potentially ruin a long-standing relationship. collei was out of the question, she's always felt more like a sister to him. he'd considered cyno for awhile, but they've been so close for so long that tighnari couldn't bring himself to risk their relationship for something so fleeting. everyone else that he knows is a colleague, and that's entirely out of the question, he'd never be able to show his face in the akademiya again.

but aki.. aki fit the bill perfectly. he's certainly good looking. they don't work together, they're not as intimately close as he is with cyno, but close enough that tighnari trusts him, that he thinks that aki won't find it particularly weird or off-putting. this is a biological imperative, after all, it's not something that tighnari can control. even still, he'd been incredibly nervous to extend the offer.. having prepared for the worst, but finding himself instead surprised by the acceptance.

after that, all that was left was to take paid leave from work, and preparation. he'd spent two days cleaning his apartment and tending to his plants, as well as stocking up on plenty of snacks and sports drinks, fruits and granola bars and things that are easy to grab, that also provide good energy. he's premade his meals for the week and stocked them in the freezer, finished all of his laundry, and rearranged the living space, pushing the furniture toward the walls to build a comfortable nest of cushions and blankets in the middle of the room. finally, the night before he'd taken a long, luxurious bath to calm his nerves, and gone to sleep.

when he wakes, it's late into the night, moonlight streaming through the gauzy curtains pulled before the common room windows, and across the glass doors. he's hot all over, deeply uncomfortable, and so slick between the thighs that he's dampened his boxer briefs and sleeping shorts both. tighnari groans, rubbing both hands over his face. it's too early. aki isn't here yet, he's probably still asleep, but tighnari's body is positively aching all over, deep frustration setting into his bones. his scent is thick and cloying, sweet like honey and crisp like morning dew, and it permeates the space, making him dizzy. he thrusts a hand down the front of his shorts, rubbing his clit and fucking himself hard on his fingers, but it isn't enough, gods, it isn't enough. two unfulfilling orgasms later he's rolling onto his side and grabbing for his phone, typing out a hasty text, deleting it, typing it again. ]


Are you awake? Started early. Please.
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-02 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ I think the world could absolutely use more people like you.

Damn Tighnari's unapologetic honesty, because Aki knows he means that, completely and fully. It isn't often that Aki worries about things like his own confidence or self-esteem - for so long, he's focused only on his needs and his mission, his heart a terribly tender thing that attaches whether he likes it or not. His lifestyle cut down on those risks, minimized the likelihood that he might hurt someone, but there's only so much of that he can do. He still gets attached, and he winds up getting hurt instead.

Is it better that he is this way, than someone with a harder edge? Is it better that he feels so much, even if it means it might someday break him?

He suddenly feels very tired, weary, and tips his head forward against the crook of Tighnari's neck, breathing out soft and low. ]


...Glad you think so.

[ He's not sure he can agree, but it means a lot that Tighnari would say so. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-02 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ In the back of his mind, Aki can't help but cotton on to this fact - that Tighnari doesn't usually need to be satisfied again so soon after climaxing, and this kiss doesn't seem to be building to another fuck or really anything else at all. It's a kiss for the sake of the kiss, deep and sensual and intimate in a way that makes his heart flutter in his chest, Tighnari filling his mouth and his mind with only the taste of him. There is room for nothing else.

It shouldn't mean anything - can't mean anything. And yet in that moment, Aki finds, unexpectedly, that he so desperately wants it to, that his heart cries out for this intimacy to be real and meaningful. Maybe it already is. He doesn't know, but it shouldn't be.

A soft sound moves in his throat, tears stinging in the corners of his eyes as he lifts his hands to cradle Tighnari's face. His thumbs crest over his cheekbones, gentle and adoring.

This is not the same thing as it was when they began only a few days ago. ]


Nari, I-I...

[ He isn't even sure what he wants to say. What he should say. So instead, he continues to kiss his lover, tasting his mouth and exploring his lips, the taste of him all around him. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-03 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ They should talk about it. They'll have to, soon enough, and Aki knows Tighnari is sharp enough himself to have realized that. They're both responsible adults who are too mature and emotionally responsive to ignore what is building between them. But Tighnari doesn't press the subject now, and so neither will Aki. Not when Tighnari's mouth feels so good, his touch so warm, his voice gentle and reassuring. He's never felt this way about anyone before.

What a terrifying, yet wonderful realization to have.

Tighnari stays where he is, seated fully in his lap, even though Aki has gone soft inside of him, neither of them want to break that contact, that physical connection. Is there anything else that even needs to be said?

No, not right now. Instead, Aki continues to simply hold him and kiss him until he is breathless and senseless, until his lips have swollen and begin to tingle, and he can no longer distinguish the brush of Tighnari's tongue from his own. By the time that point comes, he has spent his silent tears, and let them dry without bringing further attention to them. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-03 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Perhaps it should wait. They both knew full well that this encounter would bring intense feelings along with it - how could it not? They were good friends before, Tighnari being one of the few people in his life that Aki can rely on and seek guidance from, rather than being the one being relied upon. He's always found him attractive, even if it was easy to push aside that pull until Tighnari asked him to be a part of this. Their feelings aren't surprising, though it's the intensity of them that takes him by surprise.

Aki keeps his unrelenting gaze locked upon Tighnari's eyes, gazing into them deep, never wanting to break away, for how connected it makes him feel to his lover, like he could crawl into his very heart and curl up there, safe and sound forever.

Safe and sound isn't something he really ever finds himself yearning for, but now...now it's the only thing in the world he wants. To be safe and sound alongside Tighnari. He's been a fool. ]


I know.

[ He murmurs softly, giving himself a moment to collect his thoughts by pressing another lingering kiss to Tighnari's soft, swollen lips. ]

I don't want this to end.

[ How could things possibly go back to the way they were before? It's painful to even consider. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-03 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Aki understands perfectly why Tighnari doesn't answer him, even while he puts his heart on the line, and why it isn't a no or a yes. It's a dangerous line of thinking to even indulge, given the sort of life he leads, and how he puts himself in danger each and every day. Theirs is a terribly cruel world - every time he leaves, he may not return. He has accepted this since the day he joined the Public Division, because it was the only thing that mattered.

...It isn't anymore.

That is a realization that will take a great deal of reckoning, and one he is not willing to fall into right now. Not when Tighnari makes that request of him, kissing him, touching him. Better to give himself over to that impulse, to make love as Tighnari asks him to, instead of grappling with the weight of those realizations in his mind.

Instead, he winds his arms around Tighnari's waist, pressing up and arching into his warm skin, already tacky with sweat, before rolling him onto his back, pinned between Tighnari's slender, milky thighs. ]


Nari...

[ He murmurs, teeth grazing along the length of Tighnari's slender neck, one hand reaching for his ear, thumbing over soft fur that Aki has learned well these past days. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-04 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's so much easier to forget that pain, to push it away behind lock and key when they are touching and kissing like this, wonderfully bare and ready and eager to fuck. By now, Tighnari knows him so well, and Aki can say the same in return. Each encounter is more intense and memorable than the last, and it was already good to begin with. He can lose himself in this fully. He can lose himself in him.

He kisses Tighnari for a moment longer, before his hands slip away from Tighnari's ears, smoothing down the front of Tighnari's body. He has touched and kissed every square inch of his skin at this rate, he must have, and yet Aki still hungers to do it all again, to learn him anew, to fuck him in every possible way he can.

He is a hunter at heart, after all. He enjoys pulling apart his prey.

As his palms move down over Tighnari's chest and abdomen, his mouth moves after them, kissing a hot trail along Tighnari's already smoldering body. At his nipple, at the sensitive skin beneath his sternum. At the rise of his hip, and then the dip of his thigh. Each place he kisses and teases with his teeth, until he has slithered back fully, slinging Tighnari's thigh over his shoulder like a sash.

He won't tease Tighnari too much, but he can't help but do so just a little, as he drags his tongue over the crease of his lover's thigh, pinching skin between his teeth. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-04 10:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It feels so good to be wanted. It feels so good to be wanted by Tighnari, and to hear his name uttered in a voice gone low and tight with need. Even if he wanted to deny him any longer, Aki wants this too, heat flooding his hardening cock as Tighnari urges him to the lips of his cunt ungently. He sure is still filthy, but Aki doesn't care. For someone who tends to be rather tidy, he loves a good, filthy fuck.

So he doesn't make either of them wait. His lips part in a kiss over Tighnari's clit, his tongue laving over it in a decadent, drawn-out motion, the tangy taste of him flooding into his mouth. It's a flavor he's grown familiar with, grow to love and crave. ]


Hmm...

[ He hums against Tighnari's core, the timbre of his low, needful voice buzzing into his partner's body as his mouth drags down his wet folds with an obscenely wet sound. He can taste himself, too, and while it doesn't taste as sweet as he does to his tongue, it's nevertheless exciting, thrilling, the reminder of how recently he was able to come inside him, and how fucking good it felt to fill Tighnari up with his seed.

He's gotten more into this mating thing than he expected to. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-06 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ It helps that Tighnari is so responsive, that he makes it so clear where he likes to be touched and tasted with each twitch of his hips and the pressure of his fingers. Not that...oral is very hard to get wrong, but Aki still gets no small amount of pleasure from making this especially good for his partner.

Especially with what they were on the precipice of discussing, his heart burgeoning with a terrifying warmth and affection. Being close to people like this is such a rare privilege for him, and who knows when he may lose Tighnari, too? It will come to an end, soon enough. So he'll make this count while he can.

Then, when it's over and down, he can at least remember this kernel of warmth in his chest that Tighnari now occupies, and the way that he felt, the way that he tastes against his tongue.

Drawing his tongue over his clit again, Aki reaches between Tighnari's thighs, one finger sinking fully into his already slick and filthy cunt. The way is so deliriously smooth that his stomach clenches in response, and another groan escapes him against Tighnari's folds. ]


Mm...good?

[ He knows it's good. But still. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-06 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's easy to believe it could last forever when they're like this, isn't it? To think that such pleasure and bliss could never end, because why would it? Why would they let it? How could anything that feels so good and so right come to an end? What if they simply existed in this singular moment alone, and thought of nothing else, no one else for the rest of their days?

It seems so attainable. So possible. It doesn't ache to think about spending his life with someone, or the years he has traded away. It doesn't wound his bleeding heart to think of the love he will never have in his life, because of the path he's taken, when he has so very much to give.

His tongue draws away from Tighnari's clit, instead gliding along his inner thigh, teeth pulling on soft, creamy flesh as he exhales. Takes deep, steadying breaths, and adds a second finger alongside the first as he strokes his way into him. ]


More like this?

[ Aki asks, voice quiet and rough, his fingers arching to that sensitive spot deep inside Tighnari, trailing through his own mess. ]

Or this?

[ Dragging his lips along the crease of Tighnari's thigh then back to his clit, nose nuzzling against soft fur, curling his tongue around his full bed and taking it into the heat of his mouth. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-06 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The temptation to edge him is there, to draw this out and extend his pleasure, and Aki does consider it. Would it be too cruel, when Tighnari is asking him not to stop? Would it be too painful a tease? Aki can't help but enjoy it, watching someone as competent as Tighnari comes to pieces beneath his hands and mouth, but this time, perhaps, he will be merciful.

Because, yes, he can come again, soon enough. He's so lucky to not have a refractory period, and Aki will ache to fuck him once he's come the first time.

And he knows that Tighnari is close, from the bite of his claws and the roll of his hips, the way he fucks into his fingers and mouth. There's something so very satisfying about his mouth being fucked into, of feeling the urgency with which Tighnari needs him. Every inch of his body tells him. ]


Mm.

[ Comes his only sound of assent, his tongue delving between wet folds of skin once more, gliding up and down and up again, his paired fingers curling inside Tighnari and moving at a feverish pace. His assault is relents as he feasts, drawing Tighnari's orgasm close with no intention to stop until he comes. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-07 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
[ Absorbed in the moment as he is, Aki doesn't piece together what's happening, until it is. The intensity of Tighnari's orgasm breaks around him with his voice and his body both, the scent of his slick, filthy cunt all around him already even before he comes, wet heat squirting around his fingers relentlessly.

Aki has never been with someone when this has happened, either, so it is a bit surprising, but once the initial shock wears off, it's incredibly sexy, Tighnari's essence rushing between his fingers and down not only Tighnari's thighs, but his own neck and chest, too, leaving a pool beneath Tighnari's hips, the blankets soaked and dripping. Heat twists like a knife in his gut, spurring him onward, and he doesn't ease up the touch of his fingers or his tongue until the torrent subsides, the walls of Tighnari's core easy back again.

It's only then that he at last slips his free hand down to his aching cock, neglected and lonely, but he is a patient man. It will be all the better for putting off his own satisfaction until Tighnari came on his tongue. ]


I liked it.

[ As if that wasn't obvious, from how flushed he is, how tightly he grips his cock and strokes himself. Withdrawing his fingers from Tighnari at last, he gathers up his moisture on his fingers and inserts them into his mouth, shuddering at the tangy taste left behind. He hums around his fingers, relishing the moment, before he is staggering forward, reaching for Tighnari's thighs to hold them apart once again. ]

Please - I need you.

[ Guiding his swollen cock against Tighnari's entrance, he drags his tip over his oversensitive clit, biting sharp against his lower lip. It takes all his willpower not to sink into him right away. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-07 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Yes, he continues to ask, and will continue to ask, because no matter how comfortable they have gotten with each other over the course of this week, its purpose hasn't left Aki's mind. This is to help Tighnari through his heat, and if fucking him now would prove detrimental to that goal in some way, then Aki has other means to get off, no matter how satisfying it might be to come within his lover's dripping, wet cunt after that orgasm.

Fortunately for them both, Tighnari wants him even now, and Aki could not hold out any longer, even if he wanted to. His hips are already stuttering against Tighnari's slit, that slick friction making him dizzy. The prick of Tighnari's nails into his skin only serve to spur him to find his entrance sooner, sliding into him with such intoxicating ease that he nears delirium.

All at once, the warmth of Tighnari's cunt pulls him in, slick and perfect around his swollen cock. In an instant, Aki is sheathed inside of him to the hilt, a deep, guttural groan issuing out of his lungs as he arches as deep into Tighnari as he's able. ]


Oh, fuck...

[ The pressure of his cock inside Tighnari's body forces their earlier come to drip down their thighs, and even more so once Aki begins to move again, rolling his hips into Tighnari's cunt, pumping in and out with a sinfully wet, squelching noise that makes him groan again. ]
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[personal profile] unwinds 2023-01-08 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Tighnari looks so beautiful like this. Fuck, he looks beautiful like this, completely undone beneath Aki's gaze, open and wanting and pulling him in with a gravitational force. He is so needy and debauched, that Aki gives in to the primal urge to fuck him senseless, until they both become entirely delirious. The way is so easy, and he has been so patient. No longer.

No longer. Now he pumps into Tighnari's cunt with abandon, his breath quick and sharp, groaning with each new dive. He could come now, easily, with how eager and wet and perfectly hot Tighnari is, but he wants to draw it out even longer, as long as he possibly can, to hear Tighnari beg for him even more, until there are tears in both of their eyes from the delay of pleasure.

Perhaps that is cruel, but he can be vicious when he wants to be.

Another wet slap as he slams his hips into Tighnari, sheathing himself fully, pressing further, deeper, into the straining walls of his pussy. Aki's fingernails dig in to Tighnari's hips, unrelenting as he holds him in place. ]


You want me to come? Then take it from me.

[ Milk his cock until there is nothing left for him to do but come. He wants to feel it, the pull of Tighnari's body around him, dragging his orgasm out of him until he spills free, the last thread of his self-control wrested away from him. He wills it to be taken, but Tighnari will have to fight for it. ]

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