i'm swimming in a mirror;

[ tighnari plans most things in his life vary carefully, and his heat is no exception.
past years he has dealt with it alone, but past years he has also lived quite far from civilization, so the all-consuming desire to seek out a mate was easily quelled by the fact that there was simply no one suitable within a reasonable distance. it was maddeningly frustrating, but it worked. since moving to the city, however.. things have been more difficult. the first two years he'd managed to control himself, but as he ages his heats grow in strength and intensity, and the year previous he'd very nearly done something he knows he would have regretted - it started via a text, progressed to phone sex, and ended with tighnari at the foot of a stranger's door, so eager and hungry that he'd been prepared to throw himself at some nameless, faceless body he'd found on the internet in order to slake his impossible thirst. thankfully, once they'd answered the door, he'd gotten ahold of himself and declined, but it was a very narrow thing. casual sex simply isn't something that tighnari does. not with strangers.
which is exactly why he has a different plan, this year. he'd considered taking a vacation to somewhere distant again, to tough it out alone, but unfortunately that's simply not financially feasible at this juncture, so he'd had to give up on that idea. the next best thing, he'd thought, would be to simply.. find someone he trusts enough to spend his heat with, someone he knows well enough to admit his needs to, but not so well that it'd potentially ruin a long-standing relationship. collei was out of the question, she's always felt more like a sister to him. he'd considered cyno for awhile, but they've been so close for so long that tighnari couldn't bring himself to risk their relationship for something so fleeting. everyone else that he knows is a colleague, and that's entirely out of the question, he'd never be able to show his face in the akademiya again.
but aki.. aki fit the bill perfectly. he's certainly good looking. they don't work together, they're not as intimately close as he is with cyno, but close enough that tighnari trusts him, that he thinks that aki won't find it particularly weird or off-putting. this is a biological imperative, after all, it's not something that tighnari can control. even still, he'd been incredibly nervous to extend the offer.. having prepared for the worst, but finding himself instead surprised by the acceptance.
after that, all that was left was to take paid leave from work, and preparation. he'd spent two days cleaning his apartment and tending to his plants, as well as stocking up on plenty of snacks and sports drinks, fruits and granola bars and things that are easy to grab, that also provide good energy. he's premade his meals for the week and stocked them in the freezer, finished all of his laundry, and rearranged the living space, pushing the furniture toward the walls to build a comfortable nest of cushions and blankets in the middle of the room. finally, the night before he'd taken a long, luxurious bath to calm his nerves, and gone to sleep.
when he wakes, it's late into the night, moonlight streaming through the gauzy curtains pulled before the common room windows, and across the glass doors. he's hot all over, deeply uncomfortable, and so slick between the thighs that he's dampened his boxer briefs and sleeping shorts both. tighnari groans, rubbing both hands over his face. it's too early. aki isn't here yet, he's probably still asleep, but tighnari's body is positively aching all over, deep frustration setting into his bones. his scent is thick and cloying, sweet like honey and crisp like morning dew, and it permeates the space, making him dizzy. he thrusts a hand down the front of his shorts, rubbing his clit and fucking himself hard on his fingers, but it isn't enough, gods, it isn't enough. two unfulfilling orgasms later he's rolling onto his side and grabbing for his phone, typing out a hasty text, deleting it, typing it again. ]
Are you awake? Started early. Please.

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But he's here. Without even answering, Aki only shoots Tighnari a sidelong look with a slanted frown, before dropping down onto the nest of blankets and pillows. Sure is going to be nice and cozy. ]
Then I better be as close as possible.
[ Leaning back against his pillows, he tucks his arms behind his head. He isn't going anywhere, and nerves or otherwise, he doesn't want to give Tighnari any reason to second-guess himself. Aki values his companionship, his friendship, and he's not going to jeopardize that over something foolish.
...And snuggles are nice. ]
timeskips to morning because i can
but there's no bond to be solidified in the first place. so tighnari settles near to him, but not pressed as close to him as the fox in his soul wants him to, but close enough still to feel aki's warmth, to catch his scent. curling onto his side, tighnari closes his eyes. ]
Night.
[ and it's easy enough for him to fall asleep, exhausted and comfortable and satisfied as he is.
of course, that satisfaction can last only so long. soon the dawn rises, the warm, gentle light of sunrise filtering through the gossamer curtains, bringing with it the heat in tighnari's belly again. he stirs, grunts, cracks open one eye. he's uncomfortable again, his skin dewy with sweat, a twisting in his gut that he cannot ignore, and that telltale slick between his thighs again. he'd hoped to allow aki to sleep longer, into the afternoon if needed..
maybe he can take care of himself, for a time. for a little while. shifting beneath the blankets, tighnari turns onto his back, thrusting his left hand deep into his boxer briefs, finding the wet heat there. his clit is swollen, aching, and he rolls the thickened pads of his fingers against it, a soft cry in his throat that he quickly muffles, pushing two knuckles into his mouth, sucking. his hips rock upward, his back arching away from the blankets as his pulse quickens, two fingers gliding down to his puffy slit, pressing deep into his body. ]
surprised pika
His mouth is dry and his head slightly achy, he'll need to go light up in a few minutes, once he finishes waking up - and he should make sure Tighnari knows he's awake, too. His partner is evidently already awake from the way he's moving around, but with blurry vision from the dust in his eyes, he doesn't quite realize what Tighnari is doing until he rolls over onto his side.
...But those sounds reach his ears. Of course they do. Hot, wet, needful sounds, and immediately, it reignites that fire in his belly, and reminds him right away just why he is here, what need he is to fulfill. His gaze lingers on Tighnari's tight expression for a moment, his fingers buried in his mouth, dragging his tongue over dry lips. God, he looks good like this.
In the haze of just waking, he doesn't find anything unusual about a thought like that, and neither does he hesitate, moving closer to Tighnari, leaning over him beneath the blankets. ]
Allow me.
[ He murmurs, his fingers gliding along Tighnari's forearm to his wrist, though he doesn't reach further to touch him yet, not until he makes it clear that it is welcome. ]
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Yes. Yes..
[ he whispers, nodding rapidly, shallowly, and without hesitation he withdraws his hands from his shorts, his fingers glistening with slick, and he snags aki's hand, pressing it down beneath his waistband with a soft, needful cry. he's so wet, so hot, and their fingers slide together as he guides aki's hand low, over soft, dark curls and down to slippery folds, urging him inside. ]
Please.
[ rocking his hips up, tighnari grinds his clit against aki's callused palm, groaning deep in his throat, his eyes up, on his lover's face, watching the morning sunlight halo his sleep-wild hair. he looks good, hungry and attentive, just what tighnari wants to see. ]
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Fuck.
[ He exhales at just how perfect and warm Tighnari feels inside, and already he is urging a second finger inside along the first, stroking him easily and quickly, his palm damp and slick.
Leaning over him further, Aki nuzzles to the corner of his jaw and ear, inhaling the sent of his skin, letting out a soft groan as his cock stirs between his own legs. ]
You should have woken me.
[ He didn't have to suffer in silence - or near silence, as the case may be. ]
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I thought.. mmn.. I thought you might need more sleep..
[ he murmurs, turning his face to nudge their noses together, pressing their faces together, nuzzling, rubbing, purring. ]
Gods, you feel so good.
[ he drags his mouth over aki's, his thighs spreading wider beneath the blanket, his hips jerking upward as he whines, licking at aki's lips, eager and needy. one hand remains planted over aki's in his shorts, pressing down, while the other reaches for him, sliding down his chest and abdomen, hooking in his waistband. ]
Don't stop..
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Maybe it's the morning after talking, but there's nowhere in the world he would rather be in this moment. ]
I won't.
[ He murmurs to Tighnari's lips, before dipping his tongue into his mouth, exploring the slick pad of his tongue and the soft flesh of his cheek. He supports himself with his elbow so he can maintain his position over Tighnari without leaning on him too much, but it's hard not to let himself sink into him fully. He wants the touch of his skin against his own again, surrounding him fully, completely.
His fingers move more quickly inside of him, reaching deeper, his teeth tugging over Tighnari's lips, exhaling into his mouth. ]
I want you.
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Then have me.
[ he whispers against aki's mouth, lapping at his tongue, sinking a fang into the soft, tender flesh of his lower lip. his sharp claws sink into the back of aki's knuckles, pressing hard, and he opens his eyes to look into aki's face, pleading, wanting, wanton. the hand at aki's waist snags his waistband harder, tugging downward, before his hand is plunging fearlessly down into his sleeping pants and underclothes both, palming at his cock. he's already hard, and so, so warm. ]
Fuck me.
[ it's less of a request than it is a demand, tighnari's fingers closing more tightly around his cock, pulling in a deep stroke from root to tip. aki feels good, heavy against his palm, nice and full and hot, and all tighnari can think of is the way he felt inside of him the night before, when they fucked like animals against the wall. ]
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Not that he needs the extra push, with how boldly Tighnari touches him, and what he demands of him. Maybe they can take it slow later, learning one another fully to enjoy their time together even more fully, but for now, Tighnari has needs, and Aki is eager to meet them. He indulges in a long, deep groan as Tighnari drags his grip along his cock - he is indeed already hard and heavy, turned on from the moment he heard Tighnari touching himself as he woke, the memory of the night before lingering like licking flames in his mind.
Reluctantly, he withdraws his fingers from within Tighnari with a wet, sinful sound, but a mere moment later he is bearing down over him more fully, tugging down Tighnari's sleep shorts and wriggling his way between his thighs. God, it feels incredible, to be wanted, needed like this. ]
Just try and stop me.
[ He murmurs, half-teasing, as he dips down to kiss Tighnari's mouth wetly, sloppy in his haze of sleepiness, grinding his cock against Tighnari's waiting cunt. Perhaps that's a bit too much of a tease, yet he can't help it, the urge to drive Tighnari just a bit wilder. ]
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and yet, allowing himself to let go is worth it. he doesn't fight it, he can't fight it when he has such a lovely potential mate over him, dropping down to kiss him dizzy, grinding hard between his legs.
grinding, and going no further, tighnari can't help but notice. he grunts his displeasure, squirming beneath aki's body, his fangs biting a little harder into aki's lip, forceful and demanding. his strong thighs snap tight around aki's waist, his hips jerking upward, the wet folds of his cunt gliding along the underside of aki's cock. tighnari's hands scramble downward, shoving aki's pants lower, grabbing at his hips and backside, sharp claws sinking deep into supple flesh. ]
I said fuck me.
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He would tease him more, perhaps, if it weren't almost cruel to do so, with how much Tighnari needs him right now. He won't press any further in that regard, giving them both what they want as his hands slide between them, one reaching for his cock to guide the tip against Tighnari's cunt, the other grasping tight at his hip for purchase. Already, he breathes heavily against his partner's mouth. He gives him what he wants, because Aki can hold out no longer either.
Though even as he rolls his hips to sink his cock inside of Tighnari, he does so achingly slow, pressing in inch by agonizing inch until he is fully seated within the other's body. He's so hot, so wonderfully slick, he can't help but take it slow and appreciate the twist of pleasure upon his lover's features, a mirror to his own. ]
Nari...
[ He exhales, his stomach coiling with heat ready to spring, before he is rolling his hips again, sinking his cock inside Tighnari anew, pressing deep and full as he finds his rhythm. ]
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tighnari moans, loud and needy, a shudder streaking down his spine, his body trembling to the tips of his fingers and toes. ]
Yes, please, mm..
[ that sweet little nickname doesn't go unnoticed, and it pleases tighnari's fox to hear it, even if his rational mind wants to discard it as pointless, even dangerous; there's no need to behave in such a way, no need to exchange such affections when they're both so strongly influenced right now. yet in his heat tighnari doesn't have the faculties to do anything but appreciate the gesture. ]
Ah, ah, so good, fuck me, fuck me..
[ he whines, vocal and encouraging, his cunt squeezing tightly around aki's cock, gripping him as if he never wants to let him go. he can feel every inch of him as aki finds his rhythm, the way made so tight that tighnari can make out the shape of him as he fucks deep into his body, perfect and satisfying. it isn't long before tighnari's hands are scrabbling at aki's back, drawing welts against his skin, his hips rocking up to meet every downward thrust of aki's body. they move together in tandem, tighnari's heels pressing hard into the blankets, his thighs spreading wide enough to make his hips ache. ]
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Is he really just that lonely?
Better not to think about it too much right now, and it's easy not to, when Tighnari occupies all the space around him, grasping him desperately tight, nails biting into his skin with each and every thrust. God, but he feels incredible, sounds incredible, looks incredible - every one of his senses is flooded with Tighnari and only Tighnari. Pressing his palms against the insides of Tighnari's thighs, he keeps him spread out beneath him, drilling hard, the sound of skin against skin snapping together filling the air.
It's the best thing he's ever heard. ]
I'll fuck you until you can't see straight if you want.
[ That's a promise. ]
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[ it certainly is intense, powerful in a way that is new even to tighnari. he's never spent his heat with anyone before, and while he might've used his fingers and toys to fuck himself it never felt as gratifying as this, as being connected with a real, flesh and blood person. being touched, being kissed, hearing the sound of aki's labored breathing, it adds a new dimension to it all that's enough to drive tighnari absolutely feral. ]
Wait.. nn - stop. Pull out.
[ he says, surprisingly, his hands grasping aki's shoulders, pushing. it's a lot to ask of him, a lot to ask of them both, but when aki obeys, tighnari is quick to move, rolling onto his side, then onto his belly, raising his hips high, knees pressed into the blankets. his tail lashes, then curls up over the bow of his back in a pretty arc. ]
Like this..
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Yes - he can work with this.
No sooner does Tighnari's tail curl over his back than does Tighnari grasp his backside tight in his fingers, palms slapping hard against soft, supple skin, and quickly, Aki is pressing himself forward, guiding his cock within Tighnari's pussy once more, leaning fully into him and rolling his hips.
Exhaling sharply through his lips, one hand remains perched at Tighnari's hip, the other slipping around to his front, to swipe at his clit. ]
As you wish.
[ He groans, rocking his hips faster, pumping hard, pressing Tighnari into the pillows with his weight and his cock both. ]
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Oh, Gods..
[ tighnari presses his hips back, arching downward, pushing his face into the pillow, biting down.
he won't last long this way, not with aki stroking his clit and fucking him hard and deep, driving his hips forward with every thrust, pushing his knees into the ground. every breath is a whine, a groan, he's begging with his body, offering aki all of himself, everything he is, everything he has. his ears pin back against his head, his tail shivering, the claws on his toes digging deep into the blankets to ground himself. aki pumps into him hard and ruthless, and tighnari feels the heat building. he's so close. he's so close. releasing the pillow from his fangs, he turns his head. ]
I'm.. I'm..
[ ah..
one more thrust, two, three, and tighnari comes hard, his cunt clenching mercilessly tight, squeezing, pulsing, slick running down his thighs as his entire body shudders, white light filling his vision. tighnari's claws tear at the sheets, a sharp, rough cry torn from his throat, and he's gone. ]
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Why had he ever been worried? This was absolutely the right choice, he's been attracted to Tighnari for awhile now, this almost feels like it was inevitable -
But that might be the coursing pleasure talking, as Tighnari comes hard and furious around his cock, grasping him deep, dripping along Aki's thighs and abdomen. Gritting his teeth, the pleasure surges hard through him, lost for a moment in the heat of Tighnari's climax, before he remembers himself. ]
Fuck -
[ He pulls out quick, just before he comes, seed spilling against the lips of Tighnari's cunt before Aki lets him go to pay his cock some attention, pulling in exquisite, deep strokes. He draws out every ounce of pleasure he can, every last drop, until he is utterly spent, sagging don't onto his side. ]
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tighnari remains as he is for several seconds longer, allowing aki to enjoy the view, allowing the pleasure to continue to roll over himself in sweet, warm aftershocks. it isn't until aki drops down beside him that tighnari finally folds against the blankets, turning onto his side, his knees burning and his hips aching.
immediately, thoughtlessly, he presses up close to aki, curling against his chest, rubbing his face into the crook of his shoulder and neck where his scent is strong. he smells of skin and steel, sweat and sex and smoke, and tighnari breathes it all in, his ears pinned back, humming, a purr kicking up in his chest. it rolls rhythmically, soft and intimate, vibrating in his throat as he draws nearer, his tail thumping gently against the sweat-damp blanket. ]
You're good at this..
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...Sex turns him into something of a foolish romantic, apparently.
He pushes the thought away, instead busying himself with drawing idle patterns against Tighnari's bare back, tangling their legs together, even with his own sleeping pants tangled at his ankles. ]
So are you.
[ Nuzzling into the crown of Tighnari's head, he breathes in the scent of the fur of his ears. ]
I just follow your lead.
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Mm..
[ he hums, nudging nearer, one leg hooking comfortably over aki's hip as he begins to purr, the sound rumbling soft and low in his chest, vibrating through his words. ]
Well, I'm in heat, that's my excuse. I doubt I'm as good under normal circumstances.
[ generally speaking, tighnari is far too busy to be worried about sex, though he can't help but wonder, now, how it might be with aki, under the usual conditions.. a dangerous line of thought. tighnari never really considered himself the type to have unattached sex easily, and outside of his heat he can't imagine himself keeping a friend with benefits, but aki..
well. that's just the heat talking, he's sure. nevermind that he's been so recently satisfied. his tail thumps lightly against the blankets, blankets that are damp with sweat and slick and come. good thing he was sure to prepare many clean blankets in advance. ]
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His fingers move in circles between Tighnari's shoulder blades, absorbing the sensation of his purr, one corner of his mouth tugging at the unusual display. He's never had someone purr after sex before, that's for sure. ]
Whatever you want to attribute it to, it's good.
[ Take the compliment!!! ]
It...comes on fast.
[ An observation more than a question. When his body needs that satisfaction, it seems to hit Tighnari swift and fast. ]
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[ his face flushes warm, and he pulls back to look into aki's eyes. ]
It's powerful, yes. It's like a terrible itch in a place that's difficult to scratch.
[ he offers a weary, slanted, guilty smile, his hands curling against aki's bare chest. it's not really something he can control, unfortunately, which is why aki is here to begin with - to help to slake his terrible, unquenchable thirst so he doesn't run off and do something foolish in the name of biological imperative. instead he's just.. fucking his neighbor in the name of biological imperative. it's fine. this is normal.
he rests his head against the pillow for a few moments, looking into aki's face, the fingers at his back enough to soothe him. tighnari's eyelids drop low. ]
It doesn't really go away, it just gets a little easier to control after..
[ .. after a good fuck. ]
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And it's also so quiet here. Denji and Power might burn down his apartment while he's away, but this is the first relaxing morning he's had in god knows how long... ]
Got it. So you still feel it right now, just...not at intense.
[ That...is alluring in a different kind of way, that sense of slow, burning embers to be stoked into a flame, but they shouldn't burn themselves out too quickly. They still have much time ahead of them to enjoy one another's company.
Aki's hand falls to the base of Tighnari's tail, his fingers sinking into his fur carefully. ]
Did you want some breakfast? I can cook for you.
[ Let him put his malewife skills to use. ]
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[ he still feels it, even now. the itch deep down in his bone. the warmth between his thighs that has nothing to do with the fact that they just had powerful sex, even if the aftermath does still leave him tingling. the want is also there, the desire to climb over aki, to touch and kiss and fuck until neither of them can move. but that desperate, irresistible need has burned down to smoldering embers for now, though it's only a matter of time before they're stoked again.
but that's for the future. for now, he should.. probably get cleaned up, and get some calories in his heat-starved body. aki is volunteering himself kindly, and tighnari smiles. ]
Are you sure? I wouldn't say no.
[ he knows how much of a malewife aki is, after all!! ]
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They'll just have to work some shower sex into the equation.
For now, he inhales a deep breath, mingling with the scent of Tighnari's skin and sweat, and disentangles himself at last. Slowly, he rises to his feet, pulling his sweatpants back over his slender hips. He's willing to cook shirtless, but pantsless is going too far. ]
I don't mind. It's been awhile since I could cook a meal for someone who might actually eat all of it.
[ Without picking out the green things...Power!!!! ]
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