i'm swimming in a mirror;

[ tighnari plans most things in his life vary carefully, and his heat is no exception.
past years he has dealt with it alone, but past years he has also lived quite far from civilization, so the all-consuming desire to seek out a mate was easily quelled by the fact that there was simply no one suitable within a reasonable distance. it was maddeningly frustrating, but it worked. since moving to the city, however.. things have been more difficult. the first two years he'd managed to control himself, but as he ages his heats grow in strength and intensity, and the year previous he'd very nearly done something he knows he would have regretted - it started via a text, progressed to phone sex, and ended with tighnari at the foot of a stranger's door, so eager and hungry that he'd been prepared to throw himself at some nameless, faceless body he'd found on the internet in order to slake his impossible thirst. thankfully, once they'd answered the door, he'd gotten ahold of himself and declined, but it was a very narrow thing. casual sex simply isn't something that tighnari does. not with strangers.
which is exactly why he has a different plan, this year. he'd considered taking a vacation to somewhere distant again, to tough it out alone, but unfortunately that's simply not financially feasible at this juncture, so he'd had to give up on that idea. the next best thing, he'd thought, would be to simply.. find someone he trusts enough to spend his heat with, someone he knows well enough to admit his needs to, but not so well that it'd potentially ruin a long-standing relationship. collei was out of the question, she's always felt more like a sister to him. he'd considered cyno for awhile, but they've been so close for so long that tighnari couldn't bring himself to risk their relationship for something so fleeting. everyone else that he knows is a colleague, and that's entirely out of the question, he'd never be able to show his face in the akademiya again.
but aki.. aki fit the bill perfectly. he's certainly good looking. they don't work together, they're not as intimately close as he is with cyno, but close enough that tighnari trusts him, that he thinks that aki won't find it particularly weird or off-putting. this is a biological imperative, after all, it's not something that tighnari can control. even still, he'd been incredibly nervous to extend the offer.. having prepared for the worst, but finding himself instead surprised by the acceptance.
after that, all that was left was to take paid leave from work, and preparation. he'd spent two days cleaning his apartment and tending to his plants, as well as stocking up on plenty of snacks and sports drinks, fruits and granola bars and things that are easy to grab, that also provide good energy. he's premade his meals for the week and stocked them in the freezer, finished all of his laundry, and rearranged the living space, pushing the furniture toward the walls to build a comfortable nest of cushions and blankets in the middle of the room. finally, the night before he'd taken a long, luxurious bath to calm his nerves, and gone to sleep.
when he wakes, it's late into the night, moonlight streaming through the gauzy curtains pulled before the common room windows, and across the glass doors. he's hot all over, deeply uncomfortable, and so slick between the thighs that he's dampened his boxer briefs and sleeping shorts both. tighnari groans, rubbing both hands over his face. it's too early. aki isn't here yet, he's probably still asleep, but tighnari's body is positively aching all over, deep frustration setting into his bones. his scent is thick and cloying, sweet like honey and crisp like morning dew, and it permeates the space, making him dizzy. he thrusts a hand down the front of his shorts, rubbing his clit and fucking himself hard on his fingers, but it isn't enough, gods, it isn't enough. two unfulfilling orgasms later he's rolling onto his side and grabbing for his phone, typing out a hasty text, deleting it, typing it again. ]
Are you awake? Started early. Please.

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[ There's something almost teasing in the way Aki responds, between his heated, labored breaths, and in the back of his mind, he can't help but be amused. Tighnari has always been sure of himself, clear in what he wants and how he wants it, and this is no different. Aki can often be that way himself, and he hadn't really considered how that dynamic might translate when he agreed to help Tighnari with his heat. Part of him wants to bite back make me, but for now, Tighnari is in control, calling the shots, and Aki falls into line, hips snapping him more forcefully than before.
If he doesn't want gentleness, that he can provide, too.
The heat of Tighnari's mouth spills into his own, and Aki drinks it up - his kiss, his tongue, his breath. He swallows it all, as his fingernails press painfully hard into Tighnari's hips, rooting him in place so Aki can fuck him with abandon. He feels incredible, their bodies snapping wetly together with each thrust of his cock, precome dripping down his thighs, saliva from their mouths - it's filthy. Good.
Not only does he fuck him harder, but he moves faster, too, chasing that sweet, sweet pleasure, blissful and uncomplicated and visceral, making him feel more alive than anything else - more like living for himself. ]
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it isn't long before he's entirely lost in it, his body tightening up, overwhelmed in the best ways. aki fucks him perfectly, just as he wants to be, hard and quick and deep, and tighnari feels like he's coming apart at the seams, the heat and pressure between his thighs so strong it threatens to split him in half. his thighs snap more tightly still around aki's waist, heels pressing hard into his back as he bears downward, holding still to better feel the slide of aki's cock into his body. ]
I'm close..
[ he whispers into his partner's mouth, urgent and thin, his voice gone rough and husky. this was a good idea. this was such a good idea, it's so much better than handling this on his own, with unfulfilling fingers and toys - another body is what he wants, what he needs, and aki is so perfect. he's happy to do as tighnari likes, to fulfill his requests - his demands - a good mate, an attentive mate, smelling good despite the acrid scent of smoke, tasting even better.
the door creaks beneath their weight, and tighnari sighs into his lover's mouth, his ears pressing back hard as his pleasure begins to crest. ]
I'm coming, I'm coming - oh, Gods..
[ it hits him like a fist to the gut, tighnari's cunt clenching hard, squeezing as he cries out, arching, clinging, gasping. rocked by bliss, his vision whites out, his hands scrambling, scraping, claws digging deep ruts between aki's shoulderblades. ]
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In the back of his mind, he knew that when he agreed to this. He needs touch, sweet, tender touch, warm, soft kisses, warm skin and a beating heart against his, to remind him what it is to be alive, what there is beyond his mission of revenge, and how beautiful it is.
Tighnari comes hard and tight around his cock, pulling and grasping the length of him tight, and while Aki is not quite at the peak himself yet, this pushes him a considerable ways closer, Tighnari's mouth and hands and body all working in harmonic tandem to draw him into the thick of it. God, but he feels incredible, hot and slick and tight, the welts against his shoulders only spurring him on, grounding him.
One palm presses flat against the door, while the other arm remains clamped around Tighnari's waist, leverage so Aki can pump into each tense pull of his cunt, the tension deliriously good. He only needs a few more moments - ]
Fuck -
[ He breathes harshly, though he at least has the presence of mind to pull out before he comes. Hot seed spills between their bellies in thick, sticky ropes, as he exhales sharply through clenched teeth, a guttural groan swallowed up in his throat. ]
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it doesn't take much. aki spills against his belly, sticky and hot, and tighnari buries his face against his throat, breathing in that steel smoke smell. ]
Aki.. [ he whispers, between lazy, peppered kisses to his throat. ] Aki..
[ tighnari feels so empty without him, now, already missing the feel of his cock, aching to be knotted full, but this is the best he can hope for, and it was absolutely satisfying, leaving him sagging against the door, his thighs straining to help keep himself held up. tighnari's breathing is labored, his too-hot skin dewy with sweat, his thighs slippery with their mess, and at last he feels like he can think again. at least for now.
tighnari's hands slide to bracket aki's face so he can look into his eyes with wide black pupils, nudging their noses affectionately together. ]
That was good.. so good.
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But of course, in the end, that is what this is all about, isn't it? About satisfying Tighnari's innate need for a mate, during this time when his body craves it like a drug. If he is satisfied, then Aki has done the job that Tighnari asked him here to do in the first place. That's a weight off his shoulders, but really, there was nothing to worry about, was there?
Tighnari wanted him so badly, and there's no better turn-on than that.
A shiver runs down his spine at the heat of Tighnari's kisses to his throat, warm against skin that has gone cold with goosebumps. Every inch of him feels oversensitive and raw, and while he is absolutely strong, it is still quite exhausting to pin another person against a door to fuck them. It is still the middle of the night, too.
He sinks forward against Tighnari and the door, though not uncomfortably so, as Tighnari takes his face in his hands and nuzzles him so sweetly. It makes his heart jump in a way he swiftly ignores. Though the affection has...certainly caught him off-guard, it isn't unwelcome.
His brow rests against Tighnari's, his breath still gusting quick against his cheek. ]
It was. [ A beat. ] Did it help take the edge off?
[ That seems to be the case, but he'd rather ask. ]
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it's a little easier to see clearly now, however, even if his libido will be clawing at him again soon. ]
Mhm. It helped.
[ it helped a lot. he nods, still breathing quickly, his fingers moving through aki's dark, damp hair, scratching fondly at his scalp before he carefully loosens his thighs, grasping aki's shoulders to lower himself to the floor. his legs feel like jelly, and he's a mess between the thighs, but he's feeling satisfied and sated - at least for now. he's sure to keep aki busy in the coming week. ]
Let's.. get cleaned up, and get some sleep.
[ it is, in fact, the middle of the night, after all. tugging his shorts back over his hips, tighnari begins leading aki to the washroom by the wrist, where he dampens a few hand towels. ]
I'm surprised you were even awake.
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Following Tighnari into the bathroom, he graciously accepts one of those hand towels to clean up the mess he left on his abdomen. It's almost surreal, how fast it all happened, but his blood still thrums with satisfaction just beneath the surface of his skin.
Damn, it was good. ]
I couldn't sleep. [ He explains, before adding a moment later. ] I had a lot on my mind.
[ This. He had this on his mind. There's a million other worries and cares he's gotten used to sleeping with, but this was...something new and markedly different. ]
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Ah..
[ he looks a little.. sheepish, oddly enough. tighnari is a confident young man, the type to knows what he wants, when he wants it, and how he wants it, but he's a little out of his wheelhouse, here. casual unattached sex isn't exactly a hobby of his, however much he might have planned everything out so meticulously.
tighnari rubs absently at the back of his neck and turns to glance up into aki's face. his heat has abated enough to control himself for now, but he still can't help but admire the line of his jaw, and the lovely blue of his eyes. ]
If this is too weird - if you're having second thoughts - that's.. okay. I understand. I know this is intense.
[ this is his out, if he wants it. ]
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No, that's not it. I gave you my word. I'm not backing out.
[ Not only would it feel like a shitty thing to do to a friend, he...doesn't want to. Especially now that they've already had sex once, and it only took a matter of minutes. It he was anxious about being able to perform, to satisfy Tighnari in the way he needed to be for his Heat, then that was gone the moment his cock had sunk into him.
A shiver runs down his spine as he wets his lips. ]
I said I'd be here for you, didn't I?
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[ tighnari starts, then stops. aki already accepted, twice now, if he didn't want to be here, he wouldn't be, and he should just stop picking at it, stop fussing about it. this might be among the strangest things that tighnari has ever done, but it'll be fine, it'll be all right - they already had sex once, and nothing burst into flames, it's all just fine. he exhales through his nose, and smiles, the tension bleeding from his shoulders. ]
All right. Thank you.
[ and then he's brushing past aki and into the hallway again, his tail flicking against aki's thighs as he passes. it's tempting to take his hand, and part of tighnari wants to, but he quickly ignores it; there's no need to make all of this any more confusing than it already is. he pauses at the end of the hallway, beckoning aki toward the common room, toward the nest he'd built. ]
Come on, then, let's get some sleep. You're going to need it.
[ tighnari plans to keep him very busy. ]
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Probably not, and besides, it's not like Aki is used to sleeping next to others, either. Even if they slept wrapped up in one another, he might just wake up thinking he was being attacked, and no one needs that.
Right. He's just being practical. Never mind the way his heart flutters at the implication in Tighnari's words. You're going to need it.
Quietly, he pads up behind Tighnari, exhaling a long sigh. Now, he is tired. ]
So this is where we're sleeping, huh?
[ aiden how literally do i take "nest" this is important ]
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[ this is already weird enough, he doesn't want to make it more awkward, but.. he's still riding the high of their initial fuck, and his body craves the nearness of aki's body. besides, by the time morning arrives, his heat will have ramped up again and he'll be more than ready to go - the closer aki is, the better. ]
I'll need you in the morning, though.
[ their eyes meet, briefly. a little spike of anticipation drives into his belly.
but he busies himself with their shirts, that were left abandoned on the floor. tighnari sweeps them up and carries them into the living room, draping them neatly over the arm of the sofa, before he's finally dropping back into his comfortable nest. ]
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But he's here. Without even answering, Aki only shoots Tighnari a sidelong look with a slanted frown, before dropping down onto the nest of blankets and pillows. Sure is going to be nice and cozy. ]
Then I better be as close as possible.
[ Leaning back against his pillows, he tucks his arms behind his head. He isn't going anywhere, and nerves or otherwise, he doesn't want to give Tighnari any reason to second-guess himself. Aki values his companionship, his friendship, and he's not going to jeopardize that over something foolish.
...And snuggles are nice. ]
timeskips to morning because i can
but there's no bond to be solidified in the first place. so tighnari settles near to him, but not pressed as close to him as the fox in his soul wants him to, but close enough still to feel aki's warmth, to catch his scent. curling onto his side, tighnari closes his eyes. ]
Night.
[ and it's easy enough for him to fall asleep, exhausted and comfortable and satisfied as he is.
of course, that satisfaction can last only so long. soon the dawn rises, the warm, gentle light of sunrise filtering through the gossamer curtains, bringing with it the heat in tighnari's belly again. he stirs, grunts, cracks open one eye. he's uncomfortable again, his skin dewy with sweat, a twisting in his gut that he cannot ignore, and that telltale slick between his thighs again. he'd hoped to allow aki to sleep longer, into the afternoon if needed..
maybe he can take care of himself, for a time. for a little while. shifting beneath the blankets, tighnari turns onto his back, thrusting his left hand deep into his boxer briefs, finding the wet heat there. his clit is swollen, aching, and he rolls the thickened pads of his fingers against it, a soft cry in his throat that he quickly muffles, pushing two knuckles into his mouth, sucking. his hips rock upward, his back arching away from the blankets as his pulse quickens, two fingers gliding down to his puffy slit, pressing deep into his body. ]
surprised pika
His mouth is dry and his head slightly achy, he'll need to go light up in a few minutes, once he finishes waking up - and he should make sure Tighnari knows he's awake, too. His partner is evidently already awake from the way he's moving around, but with blurry vision from the dust in his eyes, he doesn't quite realize what Tighnari is doing until he rolls over onto his side.
...But those sounds reach his ears. Of course they do. Hot, wet, needful sounds, and immediately, it reignites that fire in his belly, and reminds him right away just why he is here, what need he is to fulfill. His gaze lingers on Tighnari's tight expression for a moment, his fingers buried in his mouth, dragging his tongue over dry lips. God, he looks good like this.
In the haze of just waking, he doesn't find anything unusual about a thought like that, and neither does he hesitate, moving closer to Tighnari, leaning over him beneath the blankets. ]
Allow me.
[ He murmurs, his fingers gliding along Tighnari's forearm to his wrist, though he doesn't reach further to touch him yet, not until he makes it clear that it is welcome. ]
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Yes. Yes..
[ he whispers, nodding rapidly, shallowly, and without hesitation he withdraws his hands from his shorts, his fingers glistening with slick, and he snags aki's hand, pressing it down beneath his waistband with a soft, needful cry. he's so wet, so hot, and their fingers slide together as he guides aki's hand low, over soft, dark curls and down to slippery folds, urging him inside. ]
Please.
[ rocking his hips up, tighnari grinds his clit against aki's callused palm, groaning deep in his throat, his eyes up, on his lover's face, watching the morning sunlight halo his sleep-wild hair. he looks good, hungry and attentive, just what tighnari wants to see. ]
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Fuck.
[ He exhales at just how perfect and warm Tighnari feels inside, and already he is urging a second finger inside along the first, stroking him easily and quickly, his palm damp and slick.
Leaning over him further, Aki nuzzles to the corner of his jaw and ear, inhaling the sent of his skin, letting out a soft groan as his cock stirs between his own legs. ]
You should have woken me.
[ He didn't have to suffer in silence - or near silence, as the case may be. ]
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I thought.. mmn.. I thought you might need more sleep..
[ he murmurs, turning his face to nudge their noses together, pressing their faces together, nuzzling, rubbing, purring. ]
Gods, you feel so good.
[ he drags his mouth over aki's, his thighs spreading wider beneath the blanket, his hips jerking upward as he whines, licking at aki's lips, eager and needy. one hand remains planted over aki's in his shorts, pressing down, while the other reaches for him, sliding down his chest and abdomen, hooking in his waistband. ]
Don't stop..
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Maybe it's the morning after talking, but there's nowhere in the world he would rather be in this moment. ]
I won't.
[ He murmurs to Tighnari's lips, before dipping his tongue into his mouth, exploring the slick pad of his tongue and the soft flesh of his cheek. He supports himself with his elbow so he can maintain his position over Tighnari without leaning on him too much, but it's hard not to let himself sink into him fully. He wants the touch of his skin against his own again, surrounding him fully, completely.
His fingers move more quickly inside of him, reaching deeper, his teeth tugging over Tighnari's lips, exhaling into his mouth. ]
I want you.
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Then have me.
[ he whispers against aki's mouth, lapping at his tongue, sinking a fang into the soft, tender flesh of his lower lip. his sharp claws sink into the back of aki's knuckles, pressing hard, and he opens his eyes to look into aki's face, pleading, wanting, wanton. the hand at aki's waist snags his waistband harder, tugging downward, before his hand is plunging fearlessly down into his sleeping pants and underclothes both, palming at his cock. he's already hard, and so, so warm. ]
Fuck me.
[ it's less of a request than it is a demand, tighnari's fingers closing more tightly around his cock, pulling in a deep stroke from root to tip. aki feels good, heavy against his palm, nice and full and hot, and all tighnari can think of is the way he felt inside of him the night before, when they fucked like animals against the wall. ]
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Not that he needs the extra push, with how boldly Tighnari touches him, and what he demands of him. Maybe they can take it slow later, learning one another fully to enjoy their time together even more fully, but for now, Tighnari has needs, and Aki is eager to meet them. He indulges in a long, deep groan as Tighnari drags his grip along his cock - he is indeed already hard and heavy, turned on from the moment he heard Tighnari touching himself as he woke, the memory of the night before lingering like licking flames in his mind.
Reluctantly, he withdraws his fingers from within Tighnari with a wet, sinful sound, but a mere moment later he is bearing down over him more fully, tugging down Tighnari's sleep shorts and wriggling his way between his thighs. God, it feels incredible, to be wanted, needed like this. ]
Just try and stop me.
[ He murmurs, half-teasing, as he dips down to kiss Tighnari's mouth wetly, sloppy in his haze of sleepiness, grinding his cock against Tighnari's waiting cunt. Perhaps that's a bit too much of a tease, yet he can't help it, the urge to drive Tighnari just a bit wilder. ]
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and yet, allowing himself to let go is worth it. he doesn't fight it, he can't fight it when he has such a lovely potential mate over him, dropping down to kiss him dizzy, grinding hard between his legs.
grinding, and going no further, tighnari can't help but notice. he grunts his displeasure, squirming beneath aki's body, his fangs biting a little harder into aki's lip, forceful and demanding. his strong thighs snap tight around aki's waist, his hips jerking upward, the wet folds of his cunt gliding along the underside of aki's cock. tighnari's hands scramble downward, shoving aki's pants lower, grabbing at his hips and backside, sharp claws sinking deep into supple flesh. ]
I said fuck me.
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He would tease him more, perhaps, if it weren't almost cruel to do so, with how much Tighnari needs him right now. He won't press any further in that regard, giving them both what they want as his hands slide between them, one reaching for his cock to guide the tip against Tighnari's cunt, the other grasping tight at his hip for purchase. Already, he breathes heavily against his partner's mouth. He gives him what he wants, because Aki can hold out no longer either.
Though even as he rolls his hips to sink his cock inside of Tighnari, he does so achingly slow, pressing in inch by agonizing inch until he is fully seated within the other's body. He's so hot, so wonderfully slick, he can't help but take it slow and appreciate the twist of pleasure upon his lover's features, a mirror to his own. ]
Nari...
[ He exhales, his stomach coiling with heat ready to spring, before he is rolling his hips again, sinking his cock inside Tighnari anew, pressing deep and full as he finds his rhythm. ]
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tighnari moans, loud and needy, a shudder streaking down his spine, his body trembling to the tips of his fingers and toes. ]
Yes, please, mm..
[ that sweet little nickname doesn't go unnoticed, and it pleases tighnari's fox to hear it, even if his rational mind wants to discard it as pointless, even dangerous; there's no need to behave in such a way, no need to exchange such affections when they're both so strongly influenced right now. yet in his heat tighnari doesn't have the faculties to do anything but appreciate the gesture. ]
Ah, ah, so good, fuck me, fuck me..
[ he whines, vocal and encouraging, his cunt squeezing tightly around aki's cock, gripping him as if he never wants to let him go. he can feel every inch of him as aki finds his rhythm, the way made so tight that tighnari can make out the shape of him as he fucks deep into his body, perfect and satisfying. it isn't long before tighnari's hands are scrabbling at aki's back, drawing welts against his skin, his hips rocking up to meet every downward thrust of aki's body. they move together in tandem, tighnari's heels pressing hard into the blankets, his thighs spreading wide enough to make his hips ache. ]
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Is he really just that lonely?
Better not to think about it too much right now, and it's easy not to, when Tighnari occupies all the space around him, grasping him desperately tight, nails biting into his skin with each and every thrust. God, but he feels incredible, sounds incredible, looks incredible - every one of his senses is flooded with Tighnari and only Tighnari. Pressing his palms against the insides of Tighnari's thighs, he keeps him spread out beneath him, drilling hard, the sound of skin against skin snapping together filling the air.
It's the best thing he's ever heard. ]
I'll fuck you until you can't see straight if you want.
[ That's a promise. ]
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